What do I want in life? Sometimes I want to move on to my next phase and sometimes I want time to move back but lately it seems like I am stuck in a rut from which I cannot escape from. Life is not moving forward nor backwards. It just standing still waiting for me to make a decision which I am unsure of myself. I have always looked forward to this very moment but now that I am here, I don't know if I really want to be in this position. Now I finally understand. I remember telling K I knew what she went through but in fact I didn't, not until now anyway. I know you can't move back in life, so what can I do to make it move forward? I really don't know.